by Joy Elliot

Created on: August 05, 2009

PAIN! ANGER! HOPELESSNESS!

WHY!

Wasn't my life bad enough without THIS?

Little sisters should out-live adults,...

Right? Please, tell me I'm right!

O, GOD, WHY?

I was just learning how to be a Mommy,...
to give Mom a break!

What are we supposed to learn from this?

YOU give HOPE!

Where's MINE?

YES! Your ways are always Right and Perfect, GOD,...

but some days...

I just can't breathe!

Can you help me learn how to breathe again, O LORD?

I don't want this to turn my heart from YOU,

BUT...

right now I don't like you very much!

Please, don't hit me with lightning for saying THAT!

(YOU'RE NOT like that, are YOU?)

Just please help me to cry 'til I can't,
Be angry in your Presence, safely, until I CAN hope again,

AND...

Please, bring me to peace and rest,...

not like it was before,...

BUT...

like it can be when YOU place the settled HOPE in my heart that...

I WILL hold her again...ONE DAY,
AND...

YOU will HOLD me now, Today and every Day!

I trust YOU in pain,...AMEN. :)

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