I don't know how to tell you this
So maybe I'll just run
I don't know how to look at you
Your eyes bring me undone

It's like

I stare down at the evidence

Of something so dependable

After all this time, planning

Reading with my eyes, scanning

Now

Fear lurks within me,

Deep inside my mind.

Cluttered in a dark room,

Bitter and unkind.

Waiting and begging to be free,

I fear that I am not good enough.

I fear that by not letting people get to know the inner me, they think that the surface

Fear

I often sit looking out my window
A bleak look upon my face
The world outside my window
Nothing more than a disguise