by Melissa Mckinley

Created on: June 29, 2009

June 2009 : Blue Reflection: When I look into the mirror, I'm not pleased with who I see, instead I dwell on the person that I'd like to be, a constant inner struggle to change my evil ways, but motivation it is lost, and procrastination stays...complication, and frustration have become my friends,.. my gifts, and talents rot away, as another day quickly ends. Bad habbits have consumed me, and though my heart yearns to break free, I find my will is weak, my strength has eluded me. So the alarm sounds and another day begins, another day of nothingness, work, and fair weathered friends.. Reflecting on my youth, and all that I acheived, and all the dreams that fell away, and lies that I believed. I pray to God to guide me, to help and keep me strong, but he only helps those who help themselves, what am I doing wrong? Will I ever smile at the person that I see, instead of frowning at the one staring back at me..............just some thoughts for anybody who is approaching 40, and can relate, and a message to anyone who is young ....it only comes once, don't end up like me....and thousands of other people who get so caught up in the day to day struggle of life, that they forget to pursue their dreams, and then before they know it, they've got bills, and kids, and one day runs into the next and before you know it, you are sitting in front of a computer screen, asking yourself how the hell did I get here? and then it comes to you.....you've been here....you never left here.....so my advice to anyone, even myself,it's never too late,....the internet is a a great outlet, use it....turn off the tv, make a cup of coffee, and let your creative juices flow....you might surprise even yourself. The great thing about writing, is it's free, it comes from you,writing doesn't care what you look like, where you live, how much money you make, how big your breasts are, how tall you are, how much you weigh, what you drive, and all the other shallow, materialistic bullcrap that this country values as important. Use your voice,....we can't change the world, but if each of us makes a change thats one step in the right direction. Well, I was finished writing on this issue, a while ago, but I didn't meet the word minimum, so I'm just going to say I grew up listening to Michael Jackson, and he died recently,...regardless of the allogations made against him, he changed the music industry forever, and he will be missed. Michael, hopefully now, you have the peace you never had here on earth, you are finally free, to fly, so fly Michael, and thankyou for all the great music you left behind.

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