by Esther Bautista

Created on: June 04, 2009

The Choice of Destiny

I think it is a deep desire in the human heart to find purpose and meaning in life. We want to matter. We want to find organization in this chaos. We are born and as we get a little older someone asks us, "What
do you want to be when you grow up"? We answer that question only to change our minds a million times.

If we listen to the still small voice inside us we may hear the longings of our hearts, but if they seem unrealistic to others we are told, "You can't do that"! Confused we question whether we heard that voice right or if maybe we are a little mentally imbalanced. Life is a journey of learning who we are.

Our beliefs are shaped by how we were raised as children and whether faith was planted as a seed early in life. What one believes is very powerful. It will rule your life in the positive or negative.

I don't consider myself a religious person, but I have faith in God, and try as I may to get away from Him everything comes back to Him. He is the ultimate Master of my Destiny. He has given me many gifts. The gift he has given to me he gives out to everyone and that is the gift of choice.

This life has been steered by choices, but my destiny is something unchangeable and out of my hands. Something I want to control but can not. (Which may seem to be a dichotomy juxtaposed to those previous statements.)

I knew in my spirit one day of a woman who would speak to me. I looked up and as I lifted my head a voice inside of me said she is going to tell you something. She told me that people would "know" me.
Was this my "destiny"? These meetings, happenings, are strange and rather dj vu-ish. The trouble is what kind of "know" did she mean, was she suppose to mean?

I want to make sense of what sometimes seems meaningless. When a person loses his sense of purpose and feels that he doesn't matter and consequently nothing he does matters he loses his will to live. Life become meaningless. A life without meaning is a life without hope. I think we want to feel secure in destiny yet not confined. But somehow woven into it is room for our choice. When we have done all we humanly can we need the Divine to intervene into circumstances to give us hope and something to believe in. We need the angel to come down and stir the waters so our miracle can take place.

The truth is we always have a choice and even not choosing is actually making a choice. Destiny is something that is already written because God knows all the possibilities

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