by Cj Luddeni

Created on: May 19, 2009

Writing for me has always been an outlet. Whether it be anger, love, melencoly, or fasination. Since I was a teenager, I have used writing as my voice. I was not the stongest kid in school, nor the smartest, or best at sports. But when bullies would tease me, or I was angry or just plain sad. I would sit at my desk and write. Pen and paper, pencil, crayons, whatever I had, I used. And I discovered after some years of doing this, that writing my thoughts and feelings down and giving the anger an outlet, would actually make me feel better. Not immediately, but soon after. I was as if a great weight was lifted gently off my chest and shoulders. I could breath easier.

At first I didn't realize the why, but soon, as I continued to unload my anger and pain into letters with all intentions of mailing, I would feel better for it. It was like a time-out to life.

When screaming through the ink in my pen at people in my life whom I would never confront, I could, with an easy conscious, beat the living snot out of them, I could use whatever I wanted, my words, my fists, a hammer, a saw, etc

I never realized the power I had in the palm of my hand until midway through my senior year in high school. It came to me after writing an anger filled letter my boss. I let it lay on my desk when I was finished with all intentions of mailing it. But the following day- the anger was gone. It occurred to me as I read the words again, all I did was give my soul a chance to vent, and the anger was gone.

Writing down my feelings towards another person or thing is a wonderful soul cleansing experience for me to this day.

You are the life giver of these thoughts and ideas and can do anything. You are a god, choosing what angst you pull from your soul and release onto the paper before you. Scribble it, write it, and don't check the grammar. Just let it pour out from you. Stick it in an envelope and set it aside on your desk, under your pillow, in the trash. Promise yourself you will sleep on it before you mail it. That's all.

These are your feelings and thoughts and yours alone. Everyone has bad days and bad thoughts, everyone gets angry; you can do with your thoughts whatever you wish, on paper.

This may seem too simple or not mature, but try it. Next time someone cuts you off on the highway and you feel like screaming. Do it, and then write him or her a letter, put it down on paper. Tell them they shouldn't be driving and why. That may sound mild, but, use your anger and see the results.

Put the letter aside when you are done. That's it. All you need to do is try it.

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