by Sam Zhuang

Created on: May 11, 2009

Suicide is something that torments a person day and night, 24/7. Often, something wrong happens first - whatever that might be and the person starts to considers suicide as their option. Then the cycle of thinking of suicide begins, and there's probably no ending to that cycle unless the person seeks professional help or somebody does that for the person.

The famous saying,"Suicide is a solution to a temporary problem" isn't always true. Just how temporary is the problem when you can barely grasp the events happening around you? When you're being abused and the abuser keeps a tight leash on you, you just barely get out of the place and before you know it, you're hauled back in and abused some more when you think you didn't do anything wrong.

Well, guess what? Suicide isn't just a solution to a temporary problem, it can also be a solution to a permanent problem. Here's why. After the abuser is convicted, gone for good or dead, the victim still has to go through recovery, which isn't easy because then you're prone to going back to your old habits which then leads to the abuser and the abuse. After recovery (depending on length of time), you still experience parts of the abuse - by flashbacks. That can delay or deteriorate the recovery long term. You're struggling to stay in one piece, you're struggling not to panic, not to cower against the big looming world which you haven't seen in a long time and you're struggling to live your everyday life - the "new" everyday life. The emotional effects are hard to overcome - you become drawn to suicide and its allies, which could be drugs, alcohol, self harm etc.

When suicide lingers in your mind after recovery and now you're perhaps an accountant or something that's related to having a career or to have one, you think of nothing but suicide and then before you probably even realized what you're doing, you're drinking everyday, you're cutting yourself and there's scars and scabs up and down your arms, you're just throwing away your just built life because of suicide. One day at home, right out of the blue, maybe perhaps after an argument with your friend or a co-worker or you just woke up finding that you can't get through the day, you attempt suicide.

Images of your horrific/disturbing past flash through your mind. You become angry, scared, confused and feel hopeless. You call yourself a worthless person, a person who's no good, a person who attracts crimes, criminals and worst of all, you convince yourself that

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