by Darke Serenity

Created on: May 03, 2009

In thinking about keeping a pregnancy conceived from rape, my best words to assist those who are going through this are these: there is no right or wrong answers to this type of decision. I myself was raped twice while in the military and had to go through the whole examination phase as well as do the whole waiting game. Because I was already on birth control, no emergency action was given. The waiting game was a scary and agonizing time for me.

I was anticipatiing what would happen. I didn't want to think that a pregnancy could result from these rapes. I was already debating within myself if pregnancy were to happen what would I do: carry it, raise it, give it up, or abort it? All of these options were very hard for me to even consider. If I carried the creation how would I feel, I was so unstable back then I didn't even want to fully imagine the possibilities to harming myself. If I raised it I would be constantly rewound to the incident that started all of this. If I were to give the child up, would the recieving family find out and treat the child differently. Would that child be safe even though I could not provide a loving environment? And if I were to abort it, how would I feel about it afterward. How would I be able to get over the issues of self-hate and self-resentment?

I have had two miscarriages, losing three children and am still upset at those events being called incomplete abortions. I think I would not be able to deal with myself if I'd have had to abort. I can't look upon other women and tell them what do or tell them what is right or wrong. Who am I to dictate what others do or think?

In the end, I should be able to share something of worth to those that read this and want to be able to share. This is a hard topic to ponder on, let alone write about.

I believe that a woman shouldn't have to be forced to keep the baby. I also believe that people are entitled to what they think, feel, and believe in.

To imagine that there are women out there that carry and give the child up for adoption, that is a strong, admirable person living out their desire to provide life. I know that there are also those who decide to abort the pregnancy, this is fine too.

To think about the organizations out there against abortion, that seems horrific to me. I mean what if they won in their idealism and actually had laws that abolished abortion? That would then mean that rape victims would be made to carry those children, that in itself would show those types of organizations what cruel and unusual punishment really is. How many women would really be able to tolerate that? I know I wouldn't.

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