by cyberborgz

Created on: April 30, 2009

The feeling of hollowness inside my chest, skin loosing its hue, lips growing darker and above all I have a feeling of my death nearing me with my own invitation. How can I stop it at this moment when I cannot live without it? Perhaps it would be the biggest challenge for me between life and death. However I have the reins to steer my life in the way I want to move and I would surely choose life and live longer like everyone else. I believe it is never too late to start something beneficial and I guess its time to implement a strategy to revive myself.

It was nine years ago when I first started to try putting a cigarette in my mouth and smoke, it nearly choked me to death. The smoke was very dense and similar to like inhaling steam; I felt it almost ripping away my throat like a razor. It was not a good experience and there was no pleasure to smoke. Perhaps I should have vowed to myself that I would never take it but I have no idea how I have gone back to taking it even after the harsh experience. Thereafter, cigarette has become a part of me unknowingly decaying my body with time.

I tried to quit smoking a couple of times keeping it as a resolution on auspicious days but I could not succeed. It may be because I was not completely ready for it and I repent for those days. However I have gained inspiration from various people who could quit and would like to go with the basics. Maybe it will take long to achieve it but I would like to decrease a stick in every three days. That gives me three months to eradicate my habit of taking this toxic substance.

It is evident that the whole world is seeking for a means to reduce carbon monoxide and various harmful gases to save the whole world. On a contrary I am inhaling this hazardous content through cigarette with keen interest as though it is an elixir of life. Starting from dawn to dusk, there may not be a day where I have not stuffed one through my mouth. Sometimes I wonder why I am being unfair with myself. God have gifted me with all my body intact, however I am ruining it with my will.

Smokers take a daily worth of cigarette that can feed handful of poor people who can hardly get one square meal a day. Therefore I believe that if every smoker in the world would quit smoking and deposit those money spent on one day's cigarette. It would be an enormous collection that can make a difference to the world of poor people. Think of putting money everyday for charity, the world will never get a chance to see poor people instead it would be a wonderful place decreasing the death rate by a huge percentage.

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