by Wise Spirit

Created on: April 28, 2009   Last Updated: April 30, 2009

Today I was expecting some news about a new venture I was hoping to start. Last week I had an interview for a new position within my company. It was a step up from my current position as well as a nice extra chunk of change. I'd gone through two interviews and they both looked promising.

For the last interview, I'd spoken with the General Manager for close to three hours. This was on a Wednesday. I was advised that I'd receive a call on the following Monday and that my chances looked good because I was the last applicant and the one with the most experience.

Well, I agonized all weekend. Monday just couldn't get here fast enough. I made up scenarios in my head and planned my resignation letter in detail. You see, the job that I'd loved so much has turned into a nightmare. Different management teams have assumed different roles and it's no longer the place that I wish to be. I'm not one to complain about my circumstances but rather to change them. So, about two weeks ago, I set out on a mission to find another place of employment within my company.

So, Monday is here and it's noon and I still haven't heard anything. My stomach hurts and I'm ill. My husband is telling me to calm down and pray. I've been praying all weekend. My children & friends have been praying. I'm totally sick now as I dial the number for the General Manager. Just to follow up on my interview. I'm told that she had a family emergency and left earlier in the day.

OK. I feel a little better. She didn't just blow me off, but had a pressing issue and had to attend to that first. Now what do I do? I know, I'll call the human resource department. The lady who interviewed me on the telephone first. Her answering service is on. Oh, @#&*! Now what?! Now I wait. Wait to see if I'm hired. Wait to see if I am good enough. Wait to see if I made the cut.

Wait! I'm on my current job now and mad at the world. I don't want to be here and I don't know when I'll be able to leave. With the economy being what it is, I should just be grateful that I have a job right? Oh, who cares! I didn't want that job anyway. It would have been a longer commute. I would have had to meet a whole new staff. I would have had more responsibilities. I would....I would have been pretty damn happy!

I hate feeling like this! Defeated! I'm moody now. Moody and snappy. Then a co-worker comes and asks me about a project date in May. I have to flip my calendar (currently on April) over to get the date. I have a Spiritual calendar that

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