by Leah Davidson

Created on: April 24, 2009   Last Updated: April 25, 2009

I am a disabled person with many mental challenges, I am highly anxious and that alone is quite debilitating, I get angry easily and I am unsure how to disguise my pressing thoughts about anything I think is unfair to me or any one else, this attitude gets me into trouble because people don't understand the nature of my disease, or even that I have a disease which prevents me from irrational behaviour.

Physically I am challenged with an arthritic condition which is accompanied with extreme psoriasis and that is very difficult to explain to people, they just don't want to look at it and sometimes believe it to be viral and therefore catching. Discrimination is rampant, no matter what bills are passed, in 2008 President Bush signed a bill preventing employer's from NOT hiring people who are visibly afflicted. Employers can get around that law very easily, by simply adding a part of the job that someone afflicted as I can not do, lifting heavy objects, would disqualify me and can easily be justified by the employer to explain if sued in court for discrimination.

I want a simply administration job part time so that I may supplement my income, fro instance a telephone operator, I have over 30 years experience in administration positions, I just need the help of an employer that understands I can only work 4 - 6 hours per day.

I've been trying to find work for well over a year and now we have this economic crisis, I don't believe people will use their hearts along with their common sense in hiring the disabled.

I am withering and depressed, I need distractions from isolation because isolation is so dangerous to me. I've had the worst three or four years of my entire life, I became disabled, my brother, whom I loved dearly was diagnosed with stage four metastatic prostrate cancer, he live 18 months and died in April of 2008, so that pain is fresh

I am anxious always about my living conditions which are far beyond my means. My rent is high and will be increased yearly.

I pray for God's help always and I try to carry a conversation with him always, it's always good to talk with God. I woke today with a serious fever, I have an auto-immune system disorder and a virus can be dangerous, but I prayed, I drank fluids and I immediately felt better - never underestimate the power of God's healing. I am alive because of God.

I try to stay away from doubting and complaining people, we all have serious problems that God helps us with because to Him they are trifles. He helps us, period.

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