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Poetry: My painful past

by Karyn B Jules

Tired and hurt by their deceiving
I had given up believing
in a Mister Right for me
I faced a lonely destiny

But then you opened up my mind
you were more genuine and kind
we seemed to get along so well
and without warning, in I fell

We've been together for a while
and though you always make me smile
I now feel you're deceiving too
at times your words just don't ring true

Am I imagining it all
as I lay scared behind this wall?
Are ghosts of old still haunting me
creating untold misery?

Past loves have left me less than whole
a skeptical and timid soul
unable to escape the wrath
of memories that block my path

I do want to believe in us
and I know I sometimes make a fuss
of little unimportant things
and of the pain and grief it brings

My hope is that you'll understand
and take me gently by the hand
to reaffirm and reassure
I need not worry any more

Lost and confused as I may be
I'm asking, please don't give up on me

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