by lynnci

Created on: April 05, 2009

Hey baby,

I have to dedicate this to you. For only you know the things in life I've been through. You see I constantly try to figure out a way to say to you the things I have to say. Normally for me writing is good for my soul but the distance between us has me cold. It's like I never know where to begin. I'm so lost in my thoughts I don't even know what to do with my pen.

After hours gone by I look at the paper and wonder why. Why is it still blank? So many wasted hours spent thinking and I still can't thank. When I finally do come to put something down. I decide that maybe it's something you don't want to hear. Then now my heart fills with fear. Why do I do this to myself. I know these are things we should be trying to figure out. That it's not my place to say when is the right time for you. basically I just need to put it in the envelope and mail it straight to you. Especially when it involves somethings that's weighing heavily on my heart.

Writing you has been a sort of healing for me since you have been away. Writing period has been my form of therapy up until this very day. I know when I write I say a lot. The truth behind it is what our life is going to be all about. I try to always believe and never question the things that occur in our lives. Honestly I tought yesterday was our day, but now I can only think that maybe what I see is not the way it should be. Everything is for a reason I always preach. You not making it home only makes me wonder are we not hearing the words God is trying to speak.

Baby, I know I love you, but is that enough? Are we really the reality I see. I don't know, I can't really be sure so I want say that it is. I do know that I want you at the same time I wonder do I deserve you. You are an incredible and an amazing man. You motivate me in so many ways. I can honestly say you are the boost I need. You are the bone in my back. These are the things you make me feel. Things I have never felt before. In life less knowing in love.

I can't stress enough the way I feel and the love I have for you. I will say that it is more than scary. So scary I can only wonder if I am missing all the sign's that God has placed for me to see. Seriously, this is real and I need you to listen to me. This is not about writing no poems, or any rhymes. I'm going through something right now. I can't help but to wonder if you will ever fully be mine all mines.

I better stop now for my writing is heading in the same direction as everything I've written to you before. I know you don't mind and as long as I write you don't care. That we have no problems and anything we can share as long as it's from the heart. That nothing in this world can keep you away. Home here with us is what you want to be apart. Hold up there I go again about to create a poem when all I really should be doing is letting you know where I am coming from. See, I give up. Only on writing but never on you certainly when it comes to love.

You see, you see what I mean. You just inspire me to do thing. Things I'd given up on before. Things I thought I'd never do again. You entered my life and now I see the reality is here. It's no longer adream. With you in my life things are as good as they seem.

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