God Talked to Me Today
There is no mistaking exactly when God talks to you. You are filled with a feeling unlike anything you can ever experience. There have been a few times in my life where I have felt God through the Holy Spirit. Sometimes it was to push me in a direction that needed my attention. Sometimes it was because I was needed to help someone, and sometimes, it was to convict me for thoughts or things I was doing.
Sometimes God talks to you so that you can provide a message to others. This has happened to me a couple of times. The most recent was to share a message with my sister in law. Dutifully, I did as God requested, never doubting that I was to deliver the message to this particular sister in law as I had been praying that God would show me what I needed to do. I delivered the message and stayed filled with emotion all day. I received a simple reply back from my sister in law that just said, "Thank you."
Being a messenger you are sometimes surprised by the response. My sister in law is a Christian and plays the piano at church. She is also employed by the church to clean. She says that is a ministry. I've never looked at cleaning as a ministry, but I guess it is how the "minister" looks at the ministry, not how the outside world looks on. I guess however the most important thing is how God looks at your service. It is said in the bible that doing good deeds alone does not get you into heaven. I know this, and I accepted Christ as my savior a long time ago. There have been many times, when I have backslidden and not attended church, picked up my bible or said a kind word to anyone. I've been in and out of church many times in my life. God gives everyone their trials and tribulations to deal with and everyone deals with them differently. The one important thing to remember is that you can't do anything without God.
I remind myself on a daily basis that I am not alone, and that God is always with me. Its not that I doubt his existence because he has done too many incredible things and provided so many wonderful blessings, that I wonder how anyone cannot believe in God.
Springtime always amazes me, because it's like one day you look out and there are no leaves, not one sprig of green grass and then all at once you blink and the hand of God touches every living thing and it comes to life. There have been several things that have happened through out my life to make me stray from God. Things that I thought were my fault, but weren't. Things that as a teenager I could not stop or didn't know how, but the guilt that followed me around was great. It is with the rededication of my life to God that I overcome these obstacles.
The one place you should be able to feel God is when you walk into his house. The Holy Spirit should be felt throughout the church. There are times when I have walked into a church and it is not the Holy Spirit or God I feel there. There is an eerie feeling and you know that Satan has invaded. The church where my membership currently resides has had issues. Issues that caused the pastor that was there to leave, and an interim pastor to take his place. The sermons are wonderful, but I don't feel God moving among the parishioners. Even with the music, I can't feel the Holy Spirit. My question is this, is it me that has the issue or is God just not in residence at this church anymore. I thought I felt him there once.
I currently am not attending at that church. As a matter of fact, neither my husband nor I have been there in at least 5 months. No one has even attempted to see if we have needed help or if there was some issue. I understand that large churches with huge congregations can't attend to everyone's needs on a daily basis, but I would think at least a call. When my grandmother was in need of prayer I sent a request to the pastor and expected at least an acknowledgement of some kind and got nothing. My husband said I couldn't expect that kind of thing in a large church. I thought that the purpose of a church besides teaching and saving souls was to help its congregation and people in need. I thought that is why large churches have pastors, asst pastors, music ministers and deacons. It should not be assumed that just because my brother in law is the music minister and that he works with my husband that we are okay. I feel that is what the church does; I don't feel that they really respond to its congregation.
I've expressed a desire to visit other churches to my husband. I'm currently sending my tithes to a ministry that helps many people. I pray daily that God will send us the direction that we need to go and where we need to be to help people. I pray daily that God will use me to do good things in life, according to His will and in His time. I pray that He will continue to bestow blessings upon me and my house. God is good and I pray, daily, that He will speak to me.