by Giselle Sparks

Created on: March 22, 2009

Dear Ava Elizabeth Parks,

This will be my last letter to you. I have gone through what no man should ever have to go through. My heart has broken into a million pieces. I feel is if it will never be healed. My mind is not the same as it once was. I am so sorry sweetheart. I understand you have been suffering too. I know you will hate me after this. But honey your so much stronger then me. You have the heart to survive. I can't survive this. I have cried and mourned with everything I have. Ava, I want you to know I have loved you with everything I have. You are beautiful. You are strong. Will you do something for me? Please sweetie survive this for all of us. From the day I first saw you I knew you were the one. I love you. You won my heart like no one else could. The years spent with you were the best years of my life. You are a kind hearted women. Don't forget where you come from and who you are. You stay strong for us. Remember that we love you. No father should have to bury his babies. I know, I know they were your babies too. Remember I want you to survive! I was behind the wheel that day. I was driving home. I could have easily stopped this. I didn't have to take our girls out. We could have stayed home. The wreck costed us everything. I walked out alive. Yet our girls died. How could God let this happen? Luaren was only seven and poor little Nikki was four. It could have been me. I wish it was me. I died when those girls died. My love, I know you have suffered. I am sorry for what I have done to our family. I feel like a failure. I am the one to blame. I want to die. However I want you to live. I want you to know I love you with all my heart and I love our girls with all my heart. Our family didn't have enough time on Earth together. Will you do us a favour love? Live your life strongly for us? We love you. We will be watching over you. Now Ava I want you to go straight to the phone and call the police. Do not go into the bathroom. Please sweetie. I love you and I am sorry. NICK

Ava dropped the note she had been holding in her hand. Her heartbeat begin to increase and tears soaked her face.

"Nick" Ava whispered. However she didn't move a inch. Could her husband really be dead? Did he kill himself? Was he in the bathroom? Her mind raced with question after question. Her heart felt twisted and broken. Her gut bubbled with anxiety. Ava felt as if she was going to pass out. The air in the house was cold and quiet. No sounds throughout the house.

"Nick...Nick...Honey!"

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