by Tenisha Dixon

Created on: March 21, 2009   Last Updated: March 24, 2009

Everyone has a secret but not everyone has to face it. Me, here I am. I sit and I know that at this moment in time my story will spread like a forest fire. It will burn the tongues of all I know young and old. It is setting a blaze so severe I think that the smoke will never clear. Already rumors have started, the damage has left its scar, and my lie is still in the air. The world would never be the same never again for you and I. Did I do the right thing? I it is to hard to know. Would I ever do it again ? I think maybe not. I looked around and wondered what the eyes staring back at me thought. See me, I would have to put my self out there in front for all to see. Not to try to lead by example, but please do not make my mistakes. I am just so tried of what I have become.

Everyday I walked that hallway and everyday I lied. I could not come to terms with my self image anymore. I was ashamed, humbled, and belittled in so many ways. This of all is just the beginning, and I am afraid of how it will end. I have to come forward, look my parents in the eyes, and tell them what their sweet daughter has been doing. Sounds kind of simple to you, does it not? I wish that it was simple, but it is not, and I will still go forth. The more I ponder on it, the more I change my mind, and the more I wish it never started. Betrayal is not part of the plan but I can not do it. I will accept my responsibility. I ran into my house and threw my stupid backpack down on the chair. Maybe I should leave a not? . No, no notes, no nothing, I ran into the bathroom, splashed water on my face, and decided to hit the road. I decided not to even tell you right now but maybe later on when I am stronger.

I will be okay no one in another city will know who I am. No one will guess the drama in my life, so I will leave. I will face all my changes alone, I know I can make this alright. The idea just started to sound better and better. I indeed was ready to carry out my plan and my mind was set. I'd do anything to protect my insecurities. Anything to get away from what seeing eyes caught sight of. I am going to take this baggage with me for as long as I can and travel down a path that is final. I took one lingering glance back and departed with the truth. I shall keep you with me an eternity. My secret will never be exposed for it is my burden. I do not feel as if I could ever live with the consequences of everyone knowing about you, and I will not destroy the truth. This truth is one that is real for you and me. My secret took two people to achieve. My secret takes nine months to be seen. My secret is you, the life that is growing inside of me.

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