by Wyeth De Leon

Created on: February 22, 2009   Last Updated: February 25, 2009

Do you know the song "Breaking Up is hard to do?". My dad always sings this song because this is one of his "All time Favorites". But is really breaking up is hard to do or is it harder to accept the fact that you can not take the risk of letting go of your love one. Breaking up has many reasons and sometimes that decision is for the best of the couple. I wonder do we really need to be hurt for us to be in love? Is hurt and love should not be torn apart?

I learned how to be in love and I learned how to get hurt. Being in love is the greatest feeling of all, you will have an inspiration, you know you can do anything and you came to learn how to love and take care of a partner. But you know sometimes you just have to accept the truth that the both of you wouldn't lasts forever.

I had this guy and I fell truly in love with him because of his actions and affections that he was showing to me. He showed me my worthiness and value of being a girl. He is my classmate until now and it all happened when last November. I know that he is smoker and a drunk but I didn't give importance to his negative characteristics because that time I was truly happily in love with him. He also introduced me to his mother, brother, and other relatives but not as a girlfriend. Because we didn't have a formal courtship that time or maybe it was just a fling for him. We really enjoyed the company of each other, in the classroom, outside of the school and other places. But in the late part of December he begun to be like he was not before. It really happened in a flash that I don't know my fault because I know that I didn't do anything to hurt him or for him to ignore me that way. It was Christmas when he sent me a message that he is a drunk and a smoker so he doesn't deserves me. But I told him that I have known him like that since we met and then he told me that he has alot of girls that he is not yet ready for a serious relationship. That really ripped me off because I have given him all of my love and affection without knowing that he is like that.

I know I have to move on but that time I really didn't know where and how to start because How can I move on if he is my classmate and if i see him everyday. Until now, my strength really fails when I see him not talking to me, not staring at me and not loving me anymore. But I have to tell to myself that this is for the best and this is the right thing to do. I still love myself and I don't want to become stupid loving a cheater. Every time that I see him or I talk to him, I always wear a mask, being pretentious that I had move on with our past and ready for a new friendship with him. But I always ask myself Why is it so easy for him to forget me while until now I am still suffering from the pain that he had brought me. But I have to be strong I know that I will forget about him soon and I will recover from the past. Maybe not now but I want to prove to him that he lose a girl that is worth loving for.

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