by Louise Ciccone

Created on: February 21, 2009

How I loathe you

How I cringe when I hear your name

You have made me a victim of my mistakes and pain

You make me believe I am unworthy

A disgrace

No one would ever

Could ever love this face

I want to accept God

And all the love for me that he has

But you made it so I feel worthless

Will not even give me a chance

I want to move onto brighter days

Happier times with sunnier rays

A place in time where I feel calm and ease

A place where I can say I am deserving and pleased

A place where I can believe that which is true

That I would be so much better if not for you

I could be motivated to plan and makes goals for myself

Things to do to improve my overall health

I want to change and move towards a better place

But you linger around

Say I am a disgrace

You are always around when I am feeling low

Always there reminding me of so

Many things I have done to make me unworthy

To love even myself

You tell me lies and I hear them all day

I wish you would just disappear

Go away

I have a great life but I want more

Happiness and time spent with those I adore

Time to help others and have an impact in live of others

But you never quit

Just hang out and bother

Me

all the time

I cannot move

I am so ashamed

I just sit waiting and wondering

What should or can I do

I must forgive and love myself

And erase

you

From my memories and from my mind

Leave you forever behind

I loathe your name and the presence you have

I loathe the way you make me feel so bad

I loathe the way you creep into my mind

Your are nothing to me

Want to leave you behind

Make you history

Throw you away

Then maybe I can believe that one day

I will be happy with God's love by my side

And a happy life

I loathe you and always will

For all the strife

You have caused and probably will again

I hope I can make it to the end

Without thinking I am not worthy of good

Forget you so

I can do what I would if you were not around

Move right along always reaching higher ground

Up so high

You turn to dust

Become a nothing

A never really was

So I will start climbing

Yes right now

And you will eventually turn into

A cloud

That fades away when the sun comes out

makes you nothing

Which is what you will always be

Nothing and no more

A

Part

of

Me

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