by Michael Zaphah

Created on: February 20, 2009

The melt down of my Nature (Pt two of my story of How I changed)

I never finished my though from my last chapter, but now this must continued, and for a lack of a better wound, seen the light at the end of the tunnel. I read this scripture that shown a ray of hope. "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength: (Isaiah 26:3-4). I will no longer try to entertain you with the riddle of the Wizard who was Satan him self, and I will no longer bore you with my trip down the yellow brick road. My problem began when I began and end one faith day when I had crashed landed into Orlando, Florida after God had determined that he would send me to my room, and that my room would be in the very place of fantasy. The home of Mickey the rat (I mean the mouse, because he'is a very rich mouse with very expensive lawyers), so please forgive me Mr. Disney.

Anyway, as I was sitting under a bridge thinking again about why I was in this mess, and after loosing my second Dorothy, and working on trying to audition my next great leading lady. Thought finally started coming to me while I was sitting under that bridge in Orlando, Florida and ended while I was in my beautiful apartment building in Sun Valley, Nevada, which I now rest in the new home that so gracious has given by God the Father.

A pattern of thinking was discovered that overtook me, but this pattern of think just didn't happen over night. To take from another of my favorite movies the Batman of my life (Satan) who didn't try to save me; in my version of the movie, dropped me purposely into vat of boiling acid. Having me to wear this hatred grin on my face, and that grin would only come in times past only when ever some would try to correct me in my sin of lust. I found a new name for this pain, and it was called lust, and as I though about this pattern of stinking thinking. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world. (1John 2:16) I saw the dark side in myself, which was worst that any villain I had ever encountered in any movie box offices.

I got this revelation one day when I read the scripture before I had just finished a week of fasting and praying, as the words jumped off the page and in my animated mind those thing can literally if you are prayer and fasting for a week.Then I heard these

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