Life is not always fair. I have learned that through love and loss. I have lost so many loved ones through death and life. I have lost my grandfather, my aunt, my cousin, and the most important, my brother. I was really close to my grandfather and my brother. Let me explain these two loved ones to you.
My grandfather's name was Purly and he was the most outgoing person I knew. You couldn't get away without hugging him or listening to his jokes. He was always joking. He made my day when he came to visit me. He gave you a warm and inviting feeling whenever he was around. Unfortunetly he passed away 4 years ago. I will always keep him in my heart and mind.
My brother's name was Joshua and he was the life of the room. Everyone that knew him knew that he does whatever he wants when he wants. He was always polite and understanding. He also loved to joke around. He always seen the best in a person and tried to be friends with everyone. He was a great uncle, brother, son, and father. Unfortunetly he was murdered on Jan 28th, 2007. The man that murdered my brother got off scott free and trust me that is really unfair, because of that man my brother's son will never know his father. Everyone will miss and remember Joshua. I was really close to him and I feel that I'm still close to him.
Other people that I have lost in life are still alive but not at speaking terms with me. Sometimes they call and sometimes they don't. These people are my mother, my father, my sister, and my grandparents on my father's side.
My mother and I don't speak anymore due to I got really sick of being used by her and her boyfriend. I ended up staying with them when my home burned down to the ground. Well they are raising my 8 year old neice and they decided while I was staying with them they would make me a live in babysitter with and without my permission. Not only did they do that but they expected me to clean up, keep coffee made, and watch their house when they decided they needed to go anywhere. I only got thank you's from my mother. Her boyfriend on the other hand does not like me and believe me he showed it. He would also make comments to my mother and she would repeat them to me. My neice is a spoiled little brat! She has the run of the house and both my mother and her boyfriend made that clear. My neice would tell me to do something and then remind me that it was her house and she could do whatever she wanted to do. If I tried to disipline her I would get the raw end of it. When my children came to visit they were always getting blamed for things and getting yelled at, but my neice could do no wrong. I ended up getting kicked out of their place all because I went out one night. My mother doesn't like to see me having any kind of life or friends. This has been going on for years so I finally decided to end it. I told my mother I was done and I walked away.
My father is just an idiot. He has kind of kept in touch with me but only when it benefits him. I really don't know my father that well since I have only seen him a few times my entire life. He won't come see me if I'm around my mother or sister. His excuse is he don't want trouble. The last few times he has called me is because someone has died and he wants me at the funeral. I don't really know how to take him or react.
My sister and I talk more than the rest of them. We just don't get along half the time. I know why we don't get along and I try to bite my tongue most of the time. She bothers me on the way she is living life. She has two great daughters and she only pays attention to one all the time. The other daughter is being paid attention to when it benefits her. Gee my sister kind of reminds me of my father. Well other than that her boyfriend is weird, she won't get a job, she loves the drama, and she uses me just as much as my mother does. Other than that she is ok.
My grandparents on my fathers sides is a total mess. They don't like me and won't give me a chance because they think I have turned out like my mother. I know I haven't but they won't let me show that to them. The only time that I see them is at funerals or if I happen to bump into them at a store. It doesn't really bother me that they don't bother. I really don't know them. I have seen them less than I have seen my father.
Now that you know them, let me tell you about the good things of my life. I am now engaged to a wonderful man. He has shown me true happiness and he don't care about all the bull in my life. He has two sons and they are great. I myself have five children. Now that we are together we have seven children, you might as well call us the brady bunch lol. My fiance lives in a different state than me but he will be moving to my state very shortly and we are moving in together. Since I have met him, I haven't been happier! I have come to the conclusion that I don't need all the drama and chaos in my life to be truely happy. All I need is my children, my fiance, my foster parents, and god. Once you realize that life can be good, you don't want to ever lose it.