My search for God didn't begin with the day my mother was trying to pull me out from my hiding place under the bed to dress me in a frilly, itchy dress at the age of five, taken to a boring place to draw and color pictures of a man named Jesus. My believe in evolution did not begin in a science classroom teaching me theories of Darwin. My father was an atheist, my mother a Christian. I was just trying to enjoy life without the thought of right and wrongs and judgement days to come. As a teen I breezed through days without much thought about a need to go to church or say a prayer. God was for the old. From my mother I learned who Jesus was and I kept Him close to my heart. I created Him for me, I didn't know Him. I used Him for my own purpose in whatever situation came up. I believe this is how our churches behave in their establishments. We have so many different religions and beliefs, it is hard for a logical thinking person to believe in any of it. How could so many different denominations come from one teaching? One we call Trinity, the Father, the Son, the Holy Ghost. The man we call Jesus. How can we as a world read from the same book (The Holy Bible) to fight, argue, and kill, to prove our love, our faith, to this same one God? This is what I saw and questioned as a young adult. How could anyone believe in such a God? In my view no one had the same God. Science had to be a more rational and peaceful road to take.
Science on the other end of the spectrum was as hard to digest as God. Scientists had the same prove to their theories of humans evolving from apes as religion had prove fruit from the tree of knowledge was an apple! Do these two realms really believe what they teach? Science (evolution) or God (creation), throw the dice! What in heavens name is truth, scince or God? So I did what any normal educated confused individual would do in a debate like this. Stop listening to the masses and do my own research. I started with Jesus. I believed if I could prove he wasn't real. Prove he wasn't who he claimed to be(The Son of God), I could put all this religious rubbish behind me. I started with the Bible, the book under all the dust. I read it from Genesis to Revelation. Opening my mind to more questions, I became curious. I needed answers arising from this book, The Bible. I searched for answers from books written by others with the same needs as mine. To find the one we search for, this man called Jesus. The harder I tried to disprove Jesus, the more he became real. I went to different churches trying to find more answers. But again the many denominations became dishearten to me and after a years time I decided man has taken the beautiful teachings of The Bible to condense them into confusion. Anyone in search for the true one God spoke of in the Bible would become lost in individual cults created by man's establishments called church. My research to disprove Jesus only brought me to him, to know He is real. I learned you do not need to go to church to find God, God is not in a building He is in His people and His people are in many places, schools, homeless shelthers, factories, busy highways, God is everywhere. This is truth.
I did not want to stop my research only because now I found truth in God through Jesus. I still needed to deal with science. Darwin's evolution theroy. I used the same research technics on Darwin as I did Jesus. I wanted to disprove this man called Darwin. I went to the library and borrowed the book "Origins of the Species". Reading page through page I could understand in parts the findings of Darwin, but in the part of a species jumping from one to become another, (ape to man), was too much of an illogical stretch for me. To this day archeologists have found no real sound prove of this theory. In Darwins defense he understood and believed in God. His theories came from his findings. So once again we find truth. Now we have truth in science, and truth in God. Neither can be proved or disproved.
In my closing I found God and science go hand in hand, neither one can rule out the other. Science brings creation closer to fact with each new finding turned up from under the sands of Isreal. New findings through scientist's eyes to a telescope searching a vast universe, shows us how creation happened with new planets/universes found. Life has answers to all our questions. If we are brave enough to search and accept differences, to allow an open mind agreeing science and God can both be truth. Closed minds are what pull science and God apart. These closed minds nourish hate. I can only do what I have learned from all my research, Pray! Pray that others will open their minds and hearts and believe this is a huge universe, there is plenty of room for God and science. Room for everyone to believe in both.