by Kristine Cuer

Created on: February 12, 2009

If there's one thing that I hate about reunions with high school and college friends that would be the very first question that they will ask you. It actually comes in different sentence construction but it all means the same.

1. Do you have a boyfriend already? 2. How's your heart? 3. How's your love life? 4. When are you planning to have a boyfriend? And the latest addition to that list is 5. Why are you still single? And when that question was posted to me I was like sent to never-never-land. It actually made me rant over it for some time.

I wanted to blurt out. Don't you think there's something wrong with that question? It sounds so rude. Sounds so sarcastic. Sounds like an accusation. As if being single is a crime. As if it is my fault that I am still single.

Of course I'm very much aware of my status. It's not actually complicated to think about it cause I've been in this state ever since I was brought up in this world and I don't think it'll change right after I'm finish with this article. But don't you ever think sometimes it is that tiring to answer the same questions over and over again?

Alright.

First reason that comes to mind: hmmm.by choice?

But right now it doesn't seem like it. With me posting everywhere, "I need some love to rain on me!", I don't think me being single would be a choice for now. Which leaves me with two things actually. Either there's something wrong with men these days or there is something wrong with me. Well, I guess it's wrong to generalize the former so that leaves us with the latter: ME.

To be blunt about it, I don't have any one in particular right now that I had set apart from the coven of men aside from some celebrity dudes which of course sounds really really absurd. If you'll ask me why? That I don't have an answer (for now). But the last thing on my mind right now is to kick myself in some self-help mode. Or rush to the nearest bookstore and buy that 101 Ways to Get and Keep His Attention book. Though I do think that my case is already in some desperate level, I still hasn't resorted to some desperate solutions.

Alright.

I guess the real reason why I am single right now would be I still haven't met that guy who'd love me and my blue jeans and my tees and my sneakers. Don't you think I'm asking too much? Is it that hard to understand? I guess I'd be stuck in this status unless I'd throw away those 3 things which most likely won't happen for a little more later. Or it won't change unless I'd finally meet that guy who'd prefer me wearing sneakers over stilettos. But I guess they're non-existing these days. Or so it seems.

But I won't let this be the "bane of my existence" as other people would place it. I'd still be searching or waiting, what ever will work doesn't matter. I've searched and waited for 21 years already. What's another day, another month or another year? Hope that doesn't sound too pathetic.

But yes I'm currently single.

praying.

searching.

waiting.

for my Mr. Right.

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