by Coral Roberts

Created on: February 09, 2009

Alone again. It seems the only way I am meant to be.

I thought we had it all. I loved him in every way.

We did it right starting out as friends and moving forward though the years.

We saw each other though the trials of life, lost loves, betrayals, successes and changes all the thing life offers and takes away.

Unconditional support and love got us though it all.

Trusting and sharing, giving and taking. Everyday learning, growing closer though the years discovering in time, together is where I belonged, where we both wanted to be.

Issues always, issues mine, his, sometimes life. But always knowing it was with him my future was meant to be.

Faith, hope, trust, truly believing, no doubt ever crept in.

Finally the day came we were both ready to be together as I thought we always wanted to be.

Months of planning and hoping, with issues always again trying to creep in.

Nothing would stand in our way this time, pushing ahead, blinders on, obstacles pushed aside, dreaming always dreaming of tomorrow

I promised myself I would be brave, I would move forward going to him where I knew I should be.

It all went so terribly wrong, His faith was not as strong,

He wanted to be free, he did not believe in the person I wanted to be.

He knew me too long, saw all my faults, and knew all my secrets, weaknesses and dreams. . He could not understand, he could not believe, it was him that kept me free.

Awkward moments of silence, hurt and pain. Neither of us strong enough to end it all.

Friendship too strong, love to weak, it looked like limbo was where we would always be.

Not my last hope, he was the only hope for this old heart to love and be free with my best friend beside me to enjoy the remaining days of whatever life had in store for the two of us.

Sad in the freedom our parting brought.

Never able to love or trust I wonder if he ever knew as well as he though what this ending had meant to me.

Alone again. It seems the only way I am meant to be.

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