in life you have to expect even the most lonely person to expect to find love. hell the craziest person too. in todays world in the world i live in at least im faced with the fact the guys have been labeled as this or that and there is nothing i can do about it but be who i am as a person and not lose sight of what i really want. i love like i want to be loved i try to change no one and love them for them and nothing Else less or more. but that doesn't seem to ever be noticed in the slightest cause every girl i date by the time i have gotten to then the definition of guys ins burned in to there mind so hard i ave to work extra hard to convince them I'm not your average guy. even with all that said it doesn't work some time and I'm left being the ex that cares to much to just let go and in the end of ends i end up being more and more hurt that the girl i once loved is now with another man who I'm sure is not gonna treat her like i will. i know in my heart that i will never fall into that definition i was talking about earlier and it sucks cause more recently that definition has bitten me in the ass in ever relationship Ive been in like all of them!... I'm to tired to try any more and reserve my self the right to be single for ever and let her come to me rather then me to her and even now i and slowly forming a definition of how girls are in the real world . i fight my self every day thinking to my self that NO that cant be or no this isn't happening but thats in my world and i need to learn to live in the world most of the people today are living in. I'm heart broken for the last time and refuse to prove to any other female that I'm not a heart breaker, sum bag player, liar,user,punk what ever. I'm honest sincere and put a lot some times to much in to my relationships which lead me to what i feel now. so i ask now and for ever till i find THE ONE. THE ONE that will love me as i love her and never ever slide me in to that definition of the typical guy these days. so I'm here and have spent all my energy searching and seen many and thought i found my misses but to no luck. MY HEART IS BROKEN AND I'M NOT MENDING IT ANY TIME SOON! its them for me THE MR to be found by MY MRS no longer the other way around! so in short in todays world usr your head more then your hear and when your sure that its ok to ler your heart lead let it. heart ache is no joke at all!