by Thinka

Created on: January 19, 2009

The shadows of my past haunt me everyday. I dream of yesterday when you were with me. Your shadow haunts my days. I dream of your lips caressing mine. I hurt when I think of your arms held around my chest tight. The world hated us for being together. They spit on our feelings for one another. Two woman in love? How could this be? I never thought in a million years that I would feel the feelings for you that I had felt. And, I still feel the same, but must live this life as my family would want. I did not just have you and my heart to think about, but the four souls of innocent little beings. My children had to grow up in a normal home. I would never forgive myself for not allowing this for them. I broke your heart, but I also broke my own. Do you not hear me cry at night? Do you not hear me cry in the closet when no one can hear me? I hide away this secret for the rest of my days! I must never remember those days of secret nights. But, I must remember the times when you were there to hold me while I cried. You kissed my for head when I smiled. We did have much fun together, for you were my best friend. I had to break my heart too. Don't you see? I must live my life for my children and for the better good. You will find someone new to replace the old me. Though we are far apart, my dear you are still right here close in my heart. Your shadow follows my brain. I live in the memories of us back then. I will never forget you. I will forever love you, though I must move on. You will have to be strong. I am weak now, but each day I grow stronger. I miss you Lana. I will always love you. You are the next beat of my heart. The world took away our physical being of together, I will always remember your shadow as we walked along the park that day. Your in my soul and nothing can ever take that away. Hear me in your dreams tonight, for I think of you every day. I love you and your shadow. For our past will never cease, but continue to live on in our minds, hearts, and souls. Please be thinking of me too. Remember the times when we held each other close. Remember when we laughed together over coffee. You are now a part of my past. I can never get that back. I can however feel the memories and taste the sweet times. Remember my shadow, for it will follow your soul. It will never leave your side. My heart pounds hard right now as I secretly write this letter to you. The letter that you will never read, but somehow I feel that you can feel my heart calling for you. I know that this love will never cease. For two shadows of the past shall forever reamain together.

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