Again
I lay my head down as night falls,
He welcomes me as always to his side,
His carresses scream "I knew you'd be back",
I can almost hear the sound of his smile.
In the shadows he can't see the tears in my eyes,
I doubt he can even hear the shattering of my heart,
As the slivers scatter in my chest.
Why can't I stay away?
Why do I allow to be inflicted with so much pain?
I know this is wrong,
No good will come from never saying no,
Shame will be all I have when the sun rises again.
Still I keep on running to him,
Inspite of it all,
I keep pushing others away,
Hoping one day he'll come around,
Offer escape from all this,
With a truthfullness he's never given before.
I'm so tired of this game he plays with my mind,
My heart longs for something more.
But still I go to him when the stars shine bright,
Each time it feels so right,
That moment fades as quick as it came when he's heading out the front door.
I'll swear it's the last time,
I'll curse his very name,
Even as I embrace his image in my heart,
I'll accept the excuses that tumbles off his lips.
Wait for his tender kisses he's willing to give...
Then I'll come back again.