by Natasha Hill

Created on: January 14, 2009

If I had one more day with my father it would be incredible, and some what hard for me. My father died when I was only five years old, so I never got to really know him. In a way it would be like seeing a complete stranger. I have always wanted to see him again and ask him so many questions. So the majority of the day with him would be spent talking and getting to know one another.

The conversations would consist of everything from the type of boy he was to the man he became. I want to know about the journeys he took in life and what it meant to him to be a father to so many children. I would like to know was he satisfied in what he accomplished before he died and if he had any regrets in life. I would ask him about the relationship between him and my mother. Things like how they met and what about her he loved so much. After he told me everything about himself I would begin to talk about my life. I would tell him that I have never forgotten about him and that I remember the day that he died, like it was yesterday. That I miss him ever day and that the older I get the more I miss him. How growing up without him has affected me as an adult. I would also tell him the my mother still loves him, and that she never remarried.

After talking for a while I would introduce him to my daughter and my fianc. To let him get to know the two people who I love the most. The two people that help relieve the pain that him not being there causes. I would want him to spend a little time alone with my fiance', to give him some advice on marriage, and being a good husband. Then I would ask my father for a favor and it would be for him to walk me down the isle to give me away to my fianc. That is the one thing that has always bothered me about not having a father. I am sure he would say yes and then we would go to a court house, to make it happen.

In the final hours with my father, I would want to be alone with him. We would sit there in silence, feeling that the end was near. I would tell him that I have appreciated the time we spent together and that I loved him. I would ask him to continue to look down on me and help guide me down the right path in life. I hope he would tell me that he is proud of the person that I have become. I would also ask him if he had a message for my mother. Finally I would thank him for giving me the answers I always wanted and the closure I always needed.

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