by Miss Kat

Created on: December 30, 2008

To My Dearest Mom,

Please know that I do love you and I cherish every wonderful moment we have spent together. However, there have been quite a few things I have had on my mind and I just couldn't find it in my heart to tell you for fear that you would be angry with me. So, please don't be angry because I tell you these things only with love and not to disrespect or hurt you in any way.

Mom, I can only imagine how hard it must have been to support three girls without the help of your husband. I know Dad wasn't ever there for you or for my sisters and I, but as much as I liked having nice things, I would have much preferred having you around more often. Work was important to you, and I understand why, but it just would have been nice to see you on Thanksgiving for once or Christmas.

I hated the fact that I couldn't be a kid and I hate it even more that you don't acknowledge the fact that I took care of my little sister. I was more her Dad then Dad was. I was the one who took care of her when she was sick and you had to work, I was the one who fed her when there was no one else and I was the one who took her to school, picked her up and even brought her to all of her appointments (doctors, dentists, etc.). I didn't have a childhood because my little sister became my child.

I resent the fact that you treat me differently from my sisters. I'll admit that I am the more sensitive one, but at the same time, I still have yet to see you ignore either of my sisters for more then three weeks. When an argument arises, you have so much pride that no matter whether you are right or wrong, you refuse to take the blame and you NEVER apologize! Instead, you find comfort in your stubbornness and choose to ignore me which in turn, kills me inside. The way you treat me when we argue has had a deep impact on me as an adult and I believe has caused me to have less confidence in myself because if my own mother can't find it in her own heart to say "I'm sorry" to me and chooses to ignore me until I speak to her first, then it just proves to me that I am not important enough for you to set your pride aside. I'm the only one you purposely ignore and there have even been times where I ask you why you chose to ignore me and you couldn't remember! How could you ignore me for almost a month and not remember the reason? I guess my feeling just don't seem to count.

I hate that you don't listen to what people are trying to tell you and you get defensive so easily when we are just trying to help.

• 1
• 2
• Next Page >>