by Sarah Harris

Created on: December 26, 2008

Love is a strange and unusual force of nature. It can make you or it can break you. It is hard sometimes to tell the difference between love and lust. If your seeing someone and you think your in love. But then something happens and your out of love with that person. Is that love or just deep lust. I have been thinking of one person for a few months. I think he knows how i feel about him. But sometimes i don't know if i love him or if it is lust. When i think of him my heart skips a beat, when i see him the hairs on the back of my neck tingle and i have a funny feeling inside. Every time my hand brushes against his, it feels like little pulses of electricity run up my arm. I look into his eyes and i feel like i could look into then forever. He has a good job, he owns his own house and car. I know that that kind of thing is not essential but it does help. Maybe it is love and I'm trying to convince myself that it isn't so that I wont get hurt when it all goes down the pan. I have been hurt in the past, and maybe I didn't do my best in some of the situations. But I have learnt my lessons from those bad times. What doesn't break you will make you stronger. And time they say, is the best healer.

I've been single for a few years now, and I'm ready to settle down. My three year old daughter wants me to get married(I think its because she can wear a pretty dress and look like a princess). All my close friends are in good relationships, a few are engaged or been with their partner for a few years. I want what they have and I am slightly jealous of what they have.

Maybe if I don't try and find it and just wait. Maybe it might just come to me. Because if you go chasing after something. I might not end up going the way that you want it to go. I love watching all those period dramas, you know the ones. Pride and Prejudice , Sense and Sensibility, Emma. That old style romance, writing letters and dances. I would like a man that sends me a single rose and a note, even if it isn't a special occasion. Walks on the beach at sun set, holding hands and then getting chips in paper. I'm a romantic at heart. My problem is that i just do not know how to show it. Or act on it for that matter. I have never been able to ask a man out on a date. Or make the first move . I see my friends going up and chatting to men (when there on the pull). If i see someone who is not bad, and i get chatting. I end up talking about rugby or start a drinking game.

Love to me is a mystery that I will never understand.

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