by Natasia Howaniak

Created on: December 17, 2008

Losing love you should not lose

''Why can't I go?'' I shouted ''Why are you ALWAYS so UNFAIR! Everyone else get's to go, but can I NO!''

''You still don't get it do you?'' he said in a calm voice, looking at me as if he simply didn't understand what I was yelling for, today I can see how silly it was, how stupid and ignorant I was being, but back then it mean the world to me, I saw it as a life or death matter, and I was determined to win the fight.

''What don't I get'' I sneered at him in the most hateful voice I could muster

''It's not because I don't trust you, or I don't love you, or because I'm in a bad mood today and want to take it out on you, I just don't think it's a good idea, Laura you're 14 and 14 year old's shouldn't be out until 1 A.M because one of their friends is having a party.''

Of course I knew he was right on some level, well okay I didn't know it back then, but I do now. ''You know what I do my chores I get straight A's I help out with everything, I go to church EVERY Sunday, and still you think that I'm going to do something totally irresponsible just because I get to go to a party?''

He sighed for the 6'th time, and I could feel that he was getting tired of having the discussion, okay so I had pretty much said the same things 3 times in a row but he just wasn't listening to what I was saying.

''Listen!'' He looked down at the floor, probably contemplating what to say next and how to say it, the listen had come out a little harsh and for the first time throughout the conversation he had used his 'dad' voice. ''It's not that I don't trust you. . .'' I cut him off right then and there because he also kept saying the same things over and over.

''Really dad you think that just because I go to some party that somebody is going to have such an impact over the course of 5 hours that the past 14 years are going to just go out the window?'' I had a quick thought ''Listen dad you've raised me well, you've done an amazing job, and believe me I won't do anything stupid at all!''

He smiled at me, I had hit a soft spot, and my hopes were suddenly rising. He looked out the window of our beautiful New York City penthouse apartment, suddenly his look darkened ''Laura, my answer is no, and I don't want to discuss it anymore.''

It's very funny how one moment you can feel hope even hapiness and the next feel totally shattered, ''I HATE YOU!'' I screamed at the top of my lungs the tears streaming down my face now, I ran out of the living room and into my bedroom slamming

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