by Anne Harrell

Created on: December 03, 2008   Last Updated: October 05, 2010

Moving On After A Death Of A Love One

Here we are at Christmas once again, one more year that my daughter Cyndy, has been with the Lord. We do not call her dead we just call her on vacation with The Lord. Cyndy was only eleven years old when she went to sleep on December 31, 1996 and didn't wake up on January 1, 1997. As a parent, whose child who has been taken in their prime... the pain of the child's death never completely goes away. Yet we as parents that have Christ find that we are able to get up and put one foot in front of the other each morning with the help of the Lord. When the child dies right at Christmas with in a week or two either way causes parents great discomfort. Their death is hard to get over. Not saying that any death of a love one either a child or spouse is easy to deal with at any time. Yet I feel that I could have handled Cyndy's death had it been away from Christmas much better.

Without counting on Christ to walk with me each day, and giving me renewed strength, there is no way that, I could have ever progressed as far as I have without Cyndy being here. Cyndy's name is always at the tip of my tongue. When I wake in the morning, she is on my mind and she's there as I settle down to sleep at night. Not every day do I cry. Just knowing that my daughter is still with me in mind and Spirit brings me perfect peace and comfort. She is just a thought away.

When I have a pity party, the way I have brought myself out of them is by stopping and thinking about what life would be like for Cyndy if she were still here. As for my family and me, we know that Cyndy was tired and was ready to go home. Cyndy was one of Christ very special children. If she was here what would life be as for her if she was unable to keep walking? What would it be for her to have twenty seizures a day never knowing when the next seizure was going to put her on the floor once again? How could she enjoy life if she would seizure every hour of the day or not more often? Would medical research have found a cure for her seizures? Would she have infections more often from the seizures? When those thoughts come to mind, I know that Cyndy is far better off then I am here today. If she even had a choice to come back or we could wish her back here after she has experience the perfect peace and health with the Lord; she would not want to come back to earth. She would be angry with us from wishing her back here from her home of being able to be normal and not have pain or sickness.

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