by Amber Ferreira

Created on: December 01, 2008

THE OTHER SIDE
The things I do when I get hurt are sometimes so unfair
I always hurt the ones I love because it's hard for me to care
The pain I feel cuts so deep I doubt it can be healed
I let onto so little and choose to keep the rest concealed

I don't want to be your lost cause or the sad story you made right
I don't want to make promises and I don't want to have to fight

So I'll building up these walls I've had to block out pending change
It's easier to feel this way than open up to just be rearranged

I wish that I could walk away and not feel bad to not look back
I don't need to be fulfilled and I don't need to make up what I lack
I'm not strong enough to look inside myself or shift my point of view
I'm too weak to change and too scared to let life let me feel renewed

I may change my ways one day, I promise you I might
So that our family can be whole again, and we won't have to fight
But right now I'm lost inside and my walls have gone up way to high
Change is too hard, maybe it's really worth just letting life pass me by

I'm sorry I can't be the person that you need me to be
You'll see one day that I meant well, although now you don't agree
The things I said and did to you were never done from hate

I want things to be perfect now; I guess I decided a bit too late

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