by Zachary Heil

Created on: November 30, 2008

When I first met you, I simply admired your beauty,
but now that I know you I see that it is only a fraction of your wonder.
You and my friend together,

always around me,
always tempting.

I confide with my friend to help ease the tension between the two of you.
Yet, between you and I, it blossoms.
I make you laugh more than him.
I make you smile more than him.
I make you blush more than him.

Silently, I love you more than him.

What a dilemma that I would lose a friend to gain you.
How treacherous to betray his love for you so that I could receive yours.
It's the only thing that stops me.
It's the only thing holding me back from crying out "I want you."

Should I keep my lifelong friend,
or throw it away to satisfy my lust for your heart?
Can I cozen my ally, willfully?
Can I go behind his back, only to face him with you in my arms?

The suspense of our daily intermission is unendurable.
The moments without you in sight are like long restless dreams.
The dreary fatigue can only be revived by your scent, in awe.
The letters and songs will never reach you,
but my love for you will always linger,
persistent,

perpetual,
unrelenting.

It's been nearly a thousand days since I last saw you,
when all the pain returned into the pit of my stomach.
I ached all over, hoping only to be cured by your intimate embrace.
I silently wailed for us to unite.
I again realized my love for you must never be known,
for my heart would rot if I risked hurting you.

In this quiet distance, I'll look out for you.
My withdrawals occasionally quelled by your company.
Your are my sweet vampiric addiction,
my loving poison,
my ageless secret love.

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