by C. Cowet

Created on: November 17, 2008

You make me a contradiction on each and every level.

You're both voices on my shoulders, angel and devil.

Every time I saw I love you its a battle inside of me.

Yet I feel like I'd bare my heart for you happily.

I used to be so good at putting on the brakes at will.

But you've cut the line and I'm going downhill.

I love you and hate you. You made me need you.

And I'm terrified of the day when we're through.

I never wanted this. Never wanted to need.

Love makes you strong, but it can make you bleed.

But though I'm afraid of the pain I risk for the prize.

I'm more afraid of every seeing pain in your eyes.

When I didn't love it was easier to step away.

When I didn't need I always knew what to say.

When it looked like I could hurt someone.

I made it over. I made it done.

But now, when I do love, do need, do desire.

I'm risking your heart, playing with fire.

Would it be wrong to wish you didn't love me?

So I could hurt but know that you would be free.

Free from me failing you, my greatest fear.

This is new love, and I wish it would just stop here.

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