by Kevin W Byrom

Created on: November 11, 2008

"So Lost and Alone Within Myself"

So many friends,
so many who love me,
but still, I feel so lost; so alone.

Smiles meant to cheer me up, torment my soul,
for it is not a cheerful spirit, alas, it is dying under
the weight of it's own tormenting anguish,
the life from within, slowly bleeding away, desire
to live, passing unto the dark realms of the Abyss.

I need for so much, but it eludes me with each new
twist on the path, so I fall to my knees, tears raking
my cheeks, for I don't want to go on if I have
nothing to comfort my heart, brighten my day.

I want to die, I want to end the pain,
yet I want to live, to be joyful,
to simply be as I must be.

So, I am, but I am not, due to fear of those
around me, though I am protected, I feel the
prick of my enemies, and hear the thunderous
roar of their for-boding thoughts.

My only comfort, is the goodness of my heart,
the gentleness of my spirit, and the hand
which guides me unto my true self, leading me
not unto temptation, but unto truth,
where truth has not been.

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