by Jordan Nichols

Created on: November 07, 2008

I have a little secret

That I wish to share

And one day I hope to tell you

Instead of talking to the air

But right now the time is horrible

You wouldn't know that it's me

But I've cried many a time over you

I just never let you know or see

I've tried my best to be strong

And remove you from my mind

But it just brings the pain faster

And increases it each time.

So now I think of you every day

And what I hope I meant to you

It would be so much easer to make it

To know if you think of me too

I'm not going to say that I hate you

Because I still love you with all my heart.

But I do hope you feel the pain you gave me

When you tore such a treasure apart

I'm not saying I wish I never met you

Or that for you I'd never fell

Because I'd rather loved and lost

If I hadn't my life would still be a living hell

You would probably find my words surprising

Because the intensity for you I dared not show

We didn't say much about our feelings

And I didn't know how you would feel to know

But now I wish I'd spoke every word

It wouldn't be so hard now

Maybe remembering how good it felt to be with you

Would be easier for my heart to allow

But no matter how much I want to

I cannot change the past

But believe me if I could

I would do so all to fast

I miss every word spoke

And every touch shared

And I'll never forget the night

When the flame first flared

You can ask anyone around me

If you made a huge difference in my life

They'll all reply yes and tell you that now

I walk around like my heart's been stabbed with a knife

And it's the truth

I've changed since you left

But it's like my life left with you

And it stole my happiness in theft

You really were the best thing to happen

To me since birth

But now I live without

My heaven on earth

I wonder what you would think

If I told you this to your face

But at this point I don't care

As long as it makes up for the pain

I don't say this to sound heartless

But in a way I guess it's true

I hope what you did was worth it

I wish for the best for you

I know that I sound crazy

By saying I'm still in love too

But if feeling so strongly is a crime

Then I'm as guilty as you

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