by Judi B

Created on: November 04, 2008

"I'd rather spend each passing day thinking I'm one day closer to seeing you again than remembering it's one day longer since you've been gone. I need to go on living instead of slowly dying without you."

When you were here, we always took our life for granted thinking there would always be tomorrow and then tomorrow came and you were gone.

* *The lesson I've learned from this is to treasure all of my todays so that when another tomorrow comes that I'm not ready for I'll have the memory of today to get me through.

I've always believed in "everything happens for a reason". Until the day I lost you, that always worked for me. And since that day I've struggled with - what on earth that reason could be. I've come to the conclusion that the "reason" cannot be found here on earth. Heaven only knows what that reason could be.

* *The lesson I've learned from this is that I'm not as in control of my life as I thought I always was and that there are some things I just cannot change no matter how hard I try.

I was given a very special gift all of those years ago when God brought you into my life. There were many, many times I treasured that gift and sometimes not, when I chose to complain about the little things that never should have mattered.

* *The lesson I've learned from this is that when things aren't 100% right like I think they should be is to remind myself that no one is perfect and I should be thankful for what I have and not insist on perfection.

You loved me unconditionally even with my many faults. You never complained about the things I never got to or when I did things wrong. I regretfully wish I had been able to do the same.

* *The lesson I've learned from this is I made alot of mistakes and I need to try harder to be more with others like you were with me. And looking back I can see so clearly now that it was pretty much effortless for you to love me the way you did.

And finally, since you've been gone, I've been suffering from so much sadness and so much heartbreak from not having you near to love and to cherish as I did before. But slowly I am realizing that I do still have the opportunity to love you as much as I always have. I just need to do it differently now. I can no longer reach out and touch you but the love we shared is still so imprinted in my heart forever and will never go away. It was so deep and so true and now so eternal. It's become what sustains me through this transition of letting you go where God wanted you to be - with Him.

* *The lesson

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