What has my life been like up until now? Depressing! Sad! Solitary! I just don't know how I ended up in this state! I suppose I could attribute this to the fact that I was always being looked down upon during my childhood years! I was known as the quiet child, the child that always wandered off alone. Negativity had always played a big part in my life, it's like I could not live without it! I never liked groups and I would always try and hide myself away! What was wrong with this picture? Who had nurtured or programmed me to act like this? I loved my parents but they could not see the error of their ways! Everything was, "You can't do this!" "You'll never do that!" So many negative thoughts. As you can imagine, my life was affected as a result of this mental conditioning. My parents passed away many years back and, until recently, I always suffered with low self-esteem, low self worth! I hated myself and I constantly thought that nothing would come of my life! How was I going to push forward in this world? Where would I gain the strength to fight? How would I cope with the constant challenge of living?
My mind was in turmoil! Depression had gained a foothold! I was on anti-depressants and I felt tired as well as weak! I was seeking answers, I was seeking them desperately. My breathing was becoming laboured; my shirt would be drenched in sweat! I was always gazing at the ground. I didn't feel comfortable in crowds, I always had the feeling that I was being watched or monitored. I had reached an all time low and I couldn't take it anymore. I think that I still had enough strength to make a sound decision. I was of sound mind but, I had to take some kind of action. Would I remain sane forever? I didn't think so! I was worried that I would end up going crazy! I had to do something now if I was to survive and move forward. I'd heard about those so called self-help books. I'd seen infomercials on tv, some of them quite inspirational, but that feeling only lasted a moment! Once the advert was over, I returned to my former state, that moment of inspiration gone! But, perhaps there was hope yet! I was watching the box one day and I was suddenly introduced to these two words: Life Coach! This infomercial was being shown and it was talking about this American Life Coach by the name of Anthony Robbins! Here he was giving it his all, trying to sell his product, a set of coaching tapes or cds as it were. This was some guy and I guess I was hooked for the duration of that infomercial! I had to have those tapes! I was beginning to believe in his words! Hey, perhaps there was hope for me yet! Maybe I really could start to turn things around in my life. I was at an all time low and my finances weren't up to scratch! I liked what I saw however! I made the decision! I purchased his tapes called "Personal Power II The Driving Force".
So, I had been introduced to Anthony Robbins for the first time! He was an American Life Coach! There was no way I could attend one of his seminars but I had the next best thing! I had his tapes and I had the intention of using them. So, I was feeling all depressed and down, I had a kind of woe is me attitude! I then remember when I played that first tape! Anthony Robbins' voice started flowing and my spirit started to sore! Hey, this life coach stuff actually works! Well, I was just starting out but I was slowly starting to feel good inside. The rule of the game was, I had to listen to one tape per day for a period of thirty days! I wasn't too worried about that aspect; I had these tapes for the rest of my life! Anyhow, I started listening to these tapes and I was really receiving what I needed, a good kick up the back side! By listening to these tapes I was being pushed on a daily basis! I was given tasks to do by Anthony Robbins himself! He was my personal life coach, ok, there was no physical presence to his voice but that didn't matter! I could listen to him for as little or as much as I wanted. This wasn't an overnight thing but, as you can imagine, I was slowly starting to improve my thinking! I was slowly destroying those reckless thoughts! My mind was suddenly becoming pure again! I could begin nurturing myself once more! I was being taught how to reprogram my mind and I started to smile. My self-esteem slowly started improving. I felt good! I felt alive! I wasn't exactly dancing but, I instantly knew that there was the possibility of creating a future for myself.
So, where am I now? What has been the importance of having a personal life coach? I am far happier now than I have ever been! I continue to listen to one tape a day. There have been times when I have continued to find it quite hard to deal with things but then, I would stick an Anthony Robbins tape on and my thoughts would instantly change! I am far more positive now and I attribute this to having a personal life coach. I guess when you are left to your own devices you kind of lose track! Your thoughts become muddled and I guess there's a tendency to find yourself moving backwards instead of forward. Perhaps you have quite a strong mind and you feel that you don't need a life coach. I guess the saying is, do whatever works for you! Having a personal life coach certainly worked for me and continues to work for me. I love the idea of having a life coach! If I ever make my money, then I would love to go and see one of Anthony Robbins' seminars! That guy is the bee's knees! Thank you Anthony Robbins for reminding me on a daily basis how important my life is! I now wake up each morning looking forward to the future. The sun shines, I smile, oh what a wonderful life!