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7/31/08

Musings

Today is the first day of the rest of my life, and what am I going to do about it?

I am fighting an uphill battle if I think I am going to instigate some significant changes in my life. Old habits are hard to break and everyone has a tendency to be fearful of change.

So before I decide whether my lifestyle and habits need a shakeup I suppose the best thing to do is to look at where I am and what I am doing.

Actually I am very comfortable and even more importantly, quite happy and content, but therein lies a problem and that is that I have grown a little complacent, and have slowed down my interests in doing anything new. I have an uneasy feeling that this is a bad thing, because one needs to pursue new things in order to grow. Striving to attain new heights and looking for new ways to pursue that elusive thing called happiness is the essence of growth that too many people lose sight of as they grow older.

In this far from perfect world we live in, it would be nice to think that life will end up in a happy ever after lifestyle as portrayed in so many Hollywood movies, and I think to some extent my thoughts in the past and even up to now have been influenced by this impractical and artificial concept, and I must seriously think about coming back to being the pragmatic person I once was.

One of the fundamental problems is that I think pragmatism and romance are somewhat mutually exclusive, and that is probably why I have somewhat subdued my pragmatism in favor of romance over the last several years. Perhaps there is a compromise to be made and I can balance a level of pragmatism with romance.

It seems to me that I have been holding out for a long time in the hope that I will meet my soul mate, and after several fruitless years of searching, I am coming to the realization that although I am sure she is out there somewhere, the odds of finding her are so small as to be insignificant. Yes, I am not at the point of giving up yet and I will allocate a small amount of my time and resources to keeping up the search, but the reality is that I had better get used to the idea that it isn't going to happen.

Since I am a gregarious person and I enjoy the thrill and feelings associated with romance, I do try to enjoy the company of women whenever it is practical and comfortable to do so. I really do consider them to be far nicer people than men, they are mostly kinder and nurturing, and of course, from my standpoint, being very heterosexual, they have all the toys that

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