by Vicky Smee

Created on: October 07, 2008   Last Updated: October 31, 2008

Making a baby is the most natural thing in the world. Being so natural I was sure getting pregnant would be the easiest thing in the world. I bought in lots of home pregnancy tests and ovulation tests. It was all so exiting. We were so incredibly happy.

After the first month of trying, when my period came I felt such a blow. It was only the first month, and I was sure it would still be easy, it couldn't take that long.

Eleven months later, my period was late. It wasn't the first time I had been late. As I had pregnancy tests, I thought I'd take one. I had no expectations, I refused to get my hopes up, after 11 months of trying, I was too used to disappointment.

I sat staring at the pregnancy test, my jaw dropped, I couldn't move, I was in total and utter shock. There was a second blue line, it was faint but it was there.

After a couple of minutes of trying to let it sink in, I went to my husband to show him. Neither of us were ready to believe it was true. I couldn't take it in. After 5 home tests and a visit to the doctor's office, we finally allowed ourselves to believe it, we were pregnant!

It was the most exciting time of my life. I was just so glad to be pregnant. I was doing what every woman since the dawn of mankind had done to have a baby. I was a woman, I was proud of my developing bump, proud of what my body could do, what my body was doing. I'd created life now my body was nurturing that life.

In 9 months time I'd face childbirth. As the first women who had ever roamed the earth had done. I was determined to have a natural birth. I wanted to experience every moment of my pregnancy, I knew giving birth would be agony, but it would be worth it.

I'd have come full circle from conception, pregnancy to child birth, I wanted to feel the whole complete experience, even the pain. I believed it to be pain we as women are born to cope with, and I knew I could handle it. Just as the women who had first roamed the earth had.

Every check up and every scan the results were always the same, perfect, everything was perfect. She was in breech position at every check up but I was assured that wasn't a problem, she had plenty of time to turn.

At 36 weeks I went in for another check up and to discuss plans for the labour. The midwife scrawled in my notes. Defiantly no spinal anaesthetic, no pain relief at all. Completely natural child birth.

I was so excited, I'd known so many women be terrified at the prospect of giving birth. Some even choosing not to have children out of their

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