This is my Taylor Swift. She is my inspiration to him. "I don't think that passenger seat Has ever looked this good to me He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes" See, It's funny how one day someone can look so different. You see a different color in their eyes, a different smile, a different tone in their voice. You notice how much you smile at the sound of their name, or how you can't stop telling all your friends what he does. You laugh at every joke and you take his side, even when you know he's wrong. It's pretty magnificent, how everything he says and does can effect the very breath you take.
"He'll never fall in love He swears, as he runs his fingers through his hair I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong And I don't think it ever crossed his mind He tells a joke, I fake a smile
But I know all his favorite songs" When I first noticed that he was everything I ever wanted, I never would of thought he was the guy he is to me today. A half of year ago, I looked at him as a person, who saw women as an object, as just something to use, never to love. I thought he was mean to girls and that I could never see myself with him. The crazy thing is, I was with a guy at that time, that even at his best, made my guy now look like a saint. Remarkable, how blind I was. The moment I saw him with open eyes was when he kissed me for the first time. I never would have even thought he could kiss so...gosh, I don't even have a word for it. Anyways, I saw him, I flashed back over the year, and saw everything, all the signs, the things he said, everything that should of made me realize that he was not even close to the guy I thought he was. I feel very stupid that I would of every assumed he was that typed of guy. Although I should regret not seeing the signs earlier, it doesn't guarantee that everything would be like it is now. So, sadly, I wouldn't change anything in my past, because it led me to here, my amazing man, the love of my life.
"I'll be your angel giving up her wings If that's whatcha need I'd give everything to be your anything It's not like I'm giving up who I am for you but for someone like you it's just so easy to do" I love the way he is, I wouldn't change a thing on him. He doesn't think that anyone could ever like him, that he doesn't have a future. I believe he does. I know he will have a future with me if he chooses to do so. I would love him despite his flaws, nobody is perfect. I wouldn't want him to be perfect anyways. He makes my eyes light up when he walks into a room. He gives me butterflies every time he kisses me. He makes me smile, even when he just looks at me. I could have nothing at all in this world, and all I would have to have is his hands holding mine and his eyes looking into mine, and I would know that everything would be alright. I would be happy. I am happy now. He makes my life worth going forward with. He makes me want to become someone in this world. That kid, makes me love myself. And that, my friend, is the best thing that anyone could ever give me.
"He looks around the room Innocently overlooks the truth Shouldn't a light go on Doesn't he know that I've had him memorized for so long And he sees everything black and white Never let nobody see him cry I don't let nobody see me wishing' he was mine" I may not be the most confident person and I may have more insecurities than the average person but I do know what I want. I may not know exactly how to get it or what to say at the right time, but I know there is someone out there that will think I'm perfect. I am scared that there is always going to be someone better than me out there, that I will be dropped at the very sight of her. I try to do everything perfect or at least the best I can. As I am growing up, I'm starting to realize that I can't make everyone happy and that hurts that I can't. So, I have to pick my priorities, who do I want to make happy? The only person I can come up with is him. There is something inside of me that no matter what happens, no matter what is said, or how hurt I am, that motivates me to stop at nothing to make sure he's happy. Granted, I seem a little self-less, I should be thinking about my own happiness. I have figured out that there is not changing the way I feel about people. I will always put the one's I love before myself, because without them, life isn't worth living . Yeah, I need a big boost of confidence and I need something probably extravagant to instill in my brain that he really means every word he says.
"I'm only up when you're not down. Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground. It's like no matter what I do. Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. And I'm only me when I'm with you." It was Shakespeare who said, "Love is Blind." Now that is something I know to be true. I never believe anything till is right in front of me hitting me on the forehead. In some cases, that is a major problem. I guess you can base my trust issue on that one. I trust him. I trust him enough to have my heart and not break it. I trust him to look at me and see only me. I trust him to make me laugh everyday and make me feel important to him. I trust him to keep my secrets and to hold me while I am sleeping. It is absolutely impressive how much trust I have in him, and that's only the beginning of the list. I have never put my entire heart into a relationship and been completely succumbed to him possibly breaking it. I would do anything for him, despite the consequences, because he's the person who does make me happy.
"He stands there, then walks away My God, if I could only say I'm holding every breath for you"
"First thought when I wake up is My god he's beautiful So I put on my make up And pray for a miracle" Its amazing how things always seem to work out the way they do... I mean, if someone can love you, thats remarkable, but for someone to fight for your love...is absolutely astonishing. As everyday passed, I started to realize more how much he actually liked me, but never wanted to believe it. Why? We had such an amazing friendship and he had never tried to make any move, so I always thought that he wasn't interested in me. I mean sure I had my days, when I wondered what it would be like to be with him, but I never actually considered it. Then after looking over the year that I had known him, and all the crazy things he did for me, made me realize how much of a great guy he is. For someone to like you for so long and seeing you love someone else is crazy. I don't understand how you could hold on to a person like that and still claim to be sane. I, myself, couldn't do it. Self-control and will-power, I guess. Despite, my blindness, and his willingness to like me for that long, I believe, that he deserves every second of my time, every tear from my eye, and every beat my heart can do. So, question, are you beginning to see how much this guy means to me? "Romeo, save me I've been feeling so alone. I keep waiting for you but you never come. Is this in my head, I don't know what to think. he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone. I love you and thats all I really know. I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress. Its a love story, baby, just say yes. We were both young when I first saw you" I really can't figure out a good way to end this, partly because I don't want to. How can you stop writing about how a person makes you feel? I could go on and type pages and pages of how this kid makes me dizzy but then you would know everything and I am not sure I want to let you know all of it, just now. You know, he makes my heart pound, my throat thicken, absolutely can't swallow, all the usual symptoms of an absolute adoration for a man. He makes my days to die for and my nights to remember. I, now believe, that every little thing happens for a reason. Granted, I am not the ideal girl, and I will never be perfect, but I know that I will damn well try my hardest to be that girl. There is not a star in the sky that I wouldn't catch, if he wanted it. I just hope that one day, he will look at me and see everything I see in him. How every little material thing, never mattered, and how I always just loved him for him and how I still do, and always will.