by Mikako

Created on: September 30, 2008   Last Updated: May 22, 2009

Am making effort instead of being true to my feelings

I don't want to be rejected...

Why is it me and not him who has to confess her feelings to the other?

He's already honest, always true to his feelings

He'll receive what I have to express, accept it for what it is

I've got to hear - accept - his response...

Do I take him to a place of meaning for me?

...or to him?

What to do 'til then...?

I want to touch his hand...

and search his face...

I want to go with him to a place of meaning for ... whom?

Not just as friends...

To present myself: 'Here I am...'

Not pleading to God, begging for respite from my yearning

Recognize this feeling for what it is...

Be the adult that I am, the woman that I am

He wants seriousness

To touch the heart

To pierce the heart

Not his heart but mine...

Not saccharine

Not sweetness of chocolate

But nourishment...

Not effort but

Trust

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