by Roxanne Dubarry

Created on: September 10, 2008

Emotional scars caused by mental cruelty,
Threatned to completly distroy me, and my family.
I was used to fighting back with words, and deeds.
What a frightful abusive person I became to be.
I truly hated myself, and the whole world around me.
I became a classic victem of a heartless society.

"Sticks and stones can break your bones,
But words can never hurt you," is a lie

Told to children by well meaning grownups its true.
Hateful words and deeds can threaten to destroy you.

I learned to defend myself first with my mouth,
And latter on my fists.
I learned how to break many a dish.
I would strike out before I was hurt,
And not understand, why I was not a friend to mankind.

Even people in the various churchs I attend ended up
Hurting me instead. How many times did I long
Not to rise up from my bed. I faced the future
With endless dread and fear.
I did not welcome the oncoming years.

If it was not for the prayers and gifts on well meaning
Family and friends, my life would have
Had a tragic end. I used to mediate on
Ending my life. Would you believe
Since the age of 9, I was a follower
Of Jesus Christ?

Becoming a Christian is not like having
A magic wand it is true.
Fairy tales never did mean to come true.
I called out to Jesus in darkest despair,
"Don't let the sun go down on me. Although
I serch myself, it's always someone else I see..."
Later on Elton John would write about his
Own emotional hardship and pain.

Jesus Christ died to save me from my sins.
Because He never gave up on me, when
I gave up on myself. Through hardship,
And fears, together we survived the lonely years.

He has healed my emotional pain, but
The emotional scars still remain. I can
Forgive, but not forget. However, I
Can I try to hide the emotional scars
Still lodged deep within my very soul?

Thanks to Jesus Christ, I can begin anew again.
It has been almost ten years since my last
Mental health hospitalization thanks to
The Lord Jesus Christ.
He has truly become a light unto my feet,
And a lamp unto my hand.
Because of Him, I can learn how to forgive
My fellow humans!

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