by Stena Johnson

Created on: August 27, 2008

Good Morning Angels and Welcome to a new Day to be You! While being yourself don't forget about the impact of those that have been placed in your life. We have people in our lives that our Father felt we would need . He gave them to us as Parents, Children's, Brother's , Sisters, Aunts, Uncles and so on. These people have characteristics of us in them but they are their own person. I know last week I spoke of my Mother and my situation, and how things seem to be difficult interacting with her. The ironic chapter to this book, is that my Mother's, Mother has been on life support for a few days and last night they had to make the decision on whether to pull the plug or wait for her to come around. Her health has been declining because of her physical condition- she is morbidly obese. She has literally been dyeing alone, with no one around to give her comfort. What a lonely feeling. When it comes to situations like this there are mountains of questions that are their to explore. Such as Where do I want to be at her age? Answer : I would like to be closer to those that truly know me and love me. Why are my Family relationships important? Because people are irreplaceable. How important is my health? My body is My capsule to travel thru life and with it my dreams are attainable. If I were to have a life threatening disease, what would I spend my last days doing? Making sure that everyone I loved is around me experiencing my last moments.

I know there are things that people do, that we find unforgivable and shameful or simply, we have never met them- and because of those shortcomings, we miss out on knowing a part of ourselves. My Grandmother is someone that I don't even know and have never met and now she is most likely going to pass on with out me knowing who she is and was.
I don't know how to feel about it, because my Grandmother was a very abusive person to her children in ways that were more extreme than my Mother.

Although, I do know one thing, I have to live- knowing and accepting that I never got know a part of myself.

Don't hesitate to let someone know exactly how you feel, or get to know an unknown Family member. Grand child or cousin, just get to know someone in your family that you have never met.

Then you will start a different journey in Self Discovery.

Until next time Angels, you all have a wonderful Day and I will be in touch with you soon.

Time + Distance + Unknown Family = An Undiscovered Self

P.S If any one has lost anyone or is losing someone, know you are in my prayers and Fond thoughts surround you. Don't Feel alone, Your Father has felt your pain and get you thru it. Reach out to Him so he can Hold you.

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