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me.) Isaac was Abraham's son, whom Abraham loved and adored. God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son on the altar. Abraham suffered from mental and emotional anguish. He suffered great fear and terror at having to choose between his son whom he loved and his god whom he loved. Abraham chose God. He built the altar and became willing to sacrifice Isaac. He surrendered. He became willing to let go of the thing in his life that he was most afraid of losing.

When he surrendered, God intervened and Isaac was spared. Abraham did not have to lose Isaac by sacrificing him on the altar. All he had to do was surrender the fear.

Today, just for today, that is what I did. I became willing to give up the one thing I feared losing for the sake of following my path. In the past five years, the only thing I've been afraid of losing was my husband, my marriage. Every crazy, self defeating thing I've done has been motivated by that fear. Nothing I ever did made him happy. Many things I did just made him angry.

Today, out loud, I committed to leaving my husband and the marriage if that is what I had to do to be true to myself. Tears poured from my eyes and my body heaved with sobs but I did not take back my commitment. I surrendered.

Now what? We're still married; I haven't left my husband; my husband hasn't left me; and, I am free of the fear of losing what I love the most.

The structure of our marriage trembled and looked as if it was going to fall but it didn't. It's listing to one side a little. There are a couple of broken windows and a crack in a wall or two . . . but the foundation, the most important part, is still standing.

So I applaud and acknowledge you if you're asking, "What is my purpose? Why am I here?" It takes courage. It takes surrender. It takes self-love, that thing you probably don't even know you have, just to ask those hard questions.

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