Have you ever heard about a soulmate? I'm not talking about a soulmate, that looks like a prince charming and comes on a white horse, I'm talking about a person, who comes, shakes your world and changes the direction of your life.
When I least expected to find someone, he appeared and I just knew I had to follow him. Just after the breakup I wasn't looking for anything serious, just to have fun and to forget the past as soon as possible.
My life was quiet, like a forest, I had ambitions and desires, but it was a forest, not a mountain. I just started my new path and had a feeling like rain having just washed all dirt and dust from me, sun was raising and darkness was disappearing. I was inhaling the freshness of new beginnings and was ready to start my new path.
Out of nowhere dark sparkling eyes appeared in front of me and their glow invited me for an adventure. My will broke and I could not resist their inviting power. I forgot my forest and answered their calling.
He was an Eagle. I read about Eagles and saw them in the movies. He knew and understood my path, my goals and knew how to get there. He took me for a ride to show me around, what I could become and what he wants to become. We rose so high, higher that my forests highest tree and even higher than I ever thought possible. I saw a valley and a forest and a river and even
cities, it seemed as though could scoop them in my palm. My soul expanded and it burst with all colors and sounds. I never thought, I was afraid to think, that I could rise so high.
The next minute it just stopped. I thought we will continue, we'll grow together, but eyes just disappeared. I found myself on the ground, in my forest again and just the wind was playing with my hair. I looked around, my path was here, my forest here, but I could not see it's glow anymore. You left me, but you changed my world. I raised my eyes up in to sky, now I have another calling. It's on the mountain edge, where freedom meets the danger and where the
sky meets the horizon.
I have a new direction now, and though you left, I still desire for that higher place. So I'm leaving to look for it.
A long path is waiting ahead, dry brushes and grass don't care about me, they are asking the price of blood to pass. But I don't care and slowly move towards the mountain, my dreams and goals. And even he is not inviting and doesn't wait for me at all. Every step is a fight with all my body and my fear.
My goals and what I want are so high right now, am I afraid and scared sometimes, questioning myself, is it not too high?
But I determined not to stop. I still remember standing on the edge of the mountain with arms wide open and rough wind brushing my face. My eyes were opened with new views and opportunities. The danger standing on the edge and being cautious and aware.
I miss it and I throw myself in danger now. Like any fight , am I not sure, will I win? I pray and ask for help. I know I will reach it if I don't stop and I determine not to stop, till I can breathe.
I am still amazed, how one person can change another persons path. This puts you in a special place in my heart, but I can't stay waiting here anymore, it's time for me to go. I will put all memories about you in a sacred place and will let you go with all the swans of your desires.
And I'm opening my hands and palms, my heart and soul for new beginnings and adventures and asking God to bless you and me with new life.