by Stefanie Kyak

Created on: August 13, 2008

Lost Myself

I have fallen into a darkness, feeling incomplete and inadequate.
I am beyond consoling...
Devoting my life to one ideal,
means being stomped on by many.
But never had I ever imagined
that I was blinded by a veil of disbelief;
persuading myself that I was whole by these means;
convinced that the powers of the universe could return my favor;
to make my world level in equilibrium.
However,
without the strength, anymore, to truly stand up for myself
I have lost my voice, my independence, my identity.
I am defined by - only - my trusting in someone else's heart,
and, thus, abandoned by the void.
I can't bring myself to break away and be free.
I am too much invested in my selfish emotions
than to survive on the warmth of my will to fight all these disappointments.
I can see it all coming; I just no longer step out of its way.

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