by Tom Mcmurray

Created on: August 12, 2008   Last Updated: August 14, 2008

I am beggar
I am thief
I am Eve

Buried in belief

I am leader
I am breeder
I am Adam

Narcissistic feeder

I lie inside the doorway
Unable now to die
I see the tortured infant
Unable now to cry

I fought for love of country
Unable there to die
The death of friends and comrades
Unable still to cry

Drafted for the Nam
Sixty thousand dead
They read the dead a psalm
Before the worms were fed

I've been a rogue receiver
And a dark and doomed deceiver
As I swam between two Islands
In the sea of coral jade
I walked through misty highlands
In the land of heat and grief
A soldier without purpose
Who had lost his own belief

I've lived so many lifetimes
I've turned most every trick
I lost my chance at right times
As I played the game too quick

Buried by the burden
Of my sorrow and my shame
But I was once surrounded
And surrendered to the game

Sisters of sincerity
Then came to me - free of blame
They know the fleeting nature
Of this sad and fickle fame

I've won some feeble fortunes
That still fuel the fire and flame
But then again I know
I soon will find another game
Which then completes the sequence
And we start it all again
My life - concentric circles
That come back to me the same
I smell the scent of their perfume
But can't remember all their names

The words of every prophet
And the hardships of the lame
The lepers left untreated
Slowly going quite insane
I seem to find the station
But I never find the train
And every destination
Takes me right through pouring rain

I'm walkin' through the valley
Filled with sorrow and a tear
I'm deep into a forest
As the dark is drawing near
I'm treading holy water
And I need to have you here
Some soldiers marching to the front
Some marching at the rear
Some soldiers even pull a stunt
To get their ass right out of here

Now listen to me sweetness
It is time for me to leave
My mind is moving far too fast
For me to stop and grieve
Remember that the Universe
Is vast beyond all creed
And man is just a minute part of
Universal seed

I know I've done my giving
To my friends and family dear
That is the part of living
Which can make it all so clear

But I am off to find the truth
Before I lose my youth
And if a truth indeed be found
It's through your patience so profound

We've said our last goodbyes
Yet not a tear falls from my eyes
But just before I go to sleep
Will be my time to weep
For love and long devotion
Is the potion for emotion

Look at me
Pretty woman
Can't you see
Your magic moved the mountain
And this seeker now is free

Look at me
Pretty woman
Can't you see
No longer do I want to die
I'm man enough to cry

Look at me
Pretty woman
I am free

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