by Ate.

Created on: August 12, 2008

Gone

Staggering.
Energy depleted.
Hold on to walls, don't want to fall.
Belly aches, baby writhes, not due yet!
(Please, stay inside.)
Wants to get out,
Be outside of my cries.

Doubling.
Up, in half.
Partial pain, part grief. I laugh.
Hysteria creeps. Sanity prevails.
Relentless reality.
No-where to hide.
Heart is melting, feel trailing drips die.

Confusing.
Reality changing.
Suffer shock. Heart races. Breath stops.
Appetite gone, sleep denied.
Torture self.
Emotions soar and plummet,
I flail and writhe.

Bubbling.
Fury inside.
Children search. Empty space, parent gone.
'He's at a sleepover' I say. 'Is it fun?' They ask.
I nod and grin and they are happy for him.
And I am sad and
Mad on their behalf.

Daunting.
Life without.
Baby's father, half creator. My partner.
No word, no sign, he's dissapeared.
(Due date's near!)
One minute here expressing love,
Went out for the night, said he'd be late.
But he's left us.
Alone.
Deprived.

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