by Kerry Brooks

Created on: August 07, 2008

I was just a baby when the initial damage to my soul was created. I didn't remember it in everyday life nor did it seem to bother my life and functioning. I thought it was just part of "who I was" that I never felt that I was GOOD ENOUGH.

While I never felt unworthy of good things, I also never felt that I was capable of getting and keeping them either. This feeling has plagued me for almost 40 years. I would try my hardest at things but they would always fall short of my expectations and I could never quite reach the goal. I was a good student but not good "enough" for straight A's. I was a good employee but not good "enough" to make a lot of money or get promoted. I was a good wife, but not good "enough" to keep my marriage from falling apart. I was a good mother but not good "enough" to keep my children from making mistakes. No matter where I looked in my life, I found the evidence that I was not ENOUGH.

No matter how hard I tired or the effort I put in, it was not ENOUGH.

The logical part of me understood and knew that this was not true. I have lots of good things in my life. A good job, a wonderful family, close friends etc. but deep in my heart of hearts I "knew" I was not enough.

I did a journey' with my life coach the other day and I went back to the time that I first received this message. I saw myself sitting in a high chair in the kitchen with my mother and father. They were fighting because my Dad wanted her to get pregnant again. He wanted a BOY. My mom did not want to another baby. She had me just to please my father because he had wanted a child and I was her 4th (My brothers and sister were from her first marriage). They had a very bitter argument about this resulting in my receiving the message that although I was good, I was not enough to make my father happy.

What I realized with an adults perspective is that it was not any flaw that I possessed that caused my father not to be able to see the perfectness of the child before him. That he could not SEE what I was as a spiritual being was not because I was not perfect and complete. He had lived his life from a damaged perspective as well. The perfection that his parents did not recognize has haunted him in his life too.

What I realized in that moment is that we are ALL born into perfection. However, we begin to "un -manifest" this perfection in the physical world as those around us damage us with their inability to SEE what is TRUE about us. Each of us in our truest nature is perfection but we are walking around wounding each other by not seeing our completeness. We project our own wounds onto others and receive wounds in return.

That is why unconditional love is so important. Unconditional love sees the person as they are as a perfect spiritual being, the WHOLE person without the flaws. In quantum physics there is a concept of the observer effect. That nothing exists until there is someone there to "observe" it and in that "observing" the observer decides what a particle "becomes". If we carry this concept into humanness if I observe you as a complete, whole and perfect person (even if you are "not" in our normal reality) you can begin to manifest that part of you. If we can each SEE others in their spiritual perfection, we can all begin to manifest that perfection here on Earth.

So Mote IT Be

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