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the same song and dance how he he's been thinking about me the whole time we were apart. Well we ended up going to secluded areas and talking and having sex. That night would be the last time I would do that.

At work I listen to the Wendy Williams radio show on the radio station WBLS. They were doing advice hour and there were a few callers who were doing the same thing I was doing, cheating. I heard a term that I've never heard before. The term was jump off. The definition of a jump off: Someone you are intimate with, but that person isn't your mate.

Then it hit me "Oh my god, I'm a jump off." I am purely someone these guys are getting a sexual release from and then they are going home and probably all loving with their significant others. They told me how unhappy they are with their girlfriends and buy me small gifts, but how much of the truth are they telling me? I continued to listen to the advice hour and listening to Wendy's advice. Her advice was to leave these people alone because they have someone to go home and you're home alone.

How true that was. I could not call either guy to tell them how my day was or see if they would like to go out sometime. Then something happened. I actually started to think about this situation. It dawned on me that these are not the same type of people from when I was in high school. These people today are a little crazier and a lot more violent. One night my cell phone rang and someone asked for a name that I was familiar to me. But it was the wrong number. I was confused because this guy called me five times and it took to the fifth time for me to answer my phone and his exact word was "Fool, where Eric is?" I kindly told him he had the wrong number and he apologized. I was wide awake all the way up to 3 A.M. I was now worried, did my ex slip up and leave his phone out again? Did she have friends of her call my number to see who answered? I was now becoming paranoid. That's when I swore that this has to come to a stop!

I decided to go to church and it happened again. The pastor talking about sin and what it does to you, I said to myself that's a sign! This has to stop.

My problem was telling them. I tried before and I ended up still having sex with them. Now I have to stick to my guns and mean it. Ignoring their phone calls isn't the answer, when they can easily drive to my house unannounced (which they have a few times). The more it dawned on me, the more I felt like I had this alter ego that no one knew about. I am

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